ergh.
rahhhs ! i hate trng !
i cant stand it. im getting sickk liaos.
gee i really tink im giving myself too much stress.
but i jus cant control. im someone who cant hide emotions.
mann cant blame me.
i've tried and tried and i dont tink i can go anymore futher. im getting tired.
it alright then, but now .. haiiiishhh
if i continue like this, i jus cant lead the whole team !
this is where i feel STRESS !
why why whyyy?
oh mann. i noe nobody can help me. the problem lies on ME. i jus hate myself. people work hard and they get wad they want, but i work hard, wad i get ?
nothing.
stop torturing me. its painful. ahhhs. i feel unfair. wads the use of trng? its all shit ! i gained NOTHING. hahas -im going mad.
now wad? try to tell myself to work harder next time? hahas. how many next time do i have? i dunoo. im letting go. i tried all ways to brush up my skills but errs i got nothing in the end. i dun believe in hardwork anymore. its jus an illusion. pingpong suckks.
im jus a failure. i never make myself proud. its all rubbish. i hate pingpong ! pingpong screwedd me ! rahhhhs. north zone is coming. ergh ! i hate it. i dun like it /: i drag going there. haiish !
faintedd -